CEDU lingo

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CEDU Lingo[redigér]

Language was one method of control and coercion at the CEDU facilities, since it conditioned the detainees to perceive their world and environment within the context of the program. As such, the use of specialized language played a key role in creating a cohesive mini-culture, opaque and unintelligible to outsiders and outside scrutiny, and encouraged the students to feel as if they are part of something special and unique.

When the lingo from a particular culture, group, profession, cult, behavior modification facility or any type of social structure which employs a specialized language is studied and the definitions are explained to outsiders, it often helps to demystify that particular group's way of life, work and behavior.

List of Terms[redigér]

The following is a partial list of terms from the CEDU schools.

Older/Younger Student[redigér]

This needs to be specified simply for clarification that this is not indicative of a student's age, but rather, where they are at in the program. Older = upper school, younger = lower school.

RMANKs and CEDUNKs[redigér]

Acronyms for "RMA New Kid" and "CEDU New Kid."


- see main article Propheets (CEDU) -

A 24 hour workshop. Named after Khalil Ghbiran's "The Prophet".

Getting Out[redigér]

At the end of a propheet, older students come into the workshop to "get out" a younger student. Normally this is done by a big brother or sister, but if a kid is unpopular enough, the older student responsible for coordinating this will make a plea to the house during lunchtime requesting a volunteer to get that student out. It was the nightmare of many students that this might happen to them, so they made a point of finding someone to get them out before they went into the propheet.

When a student gets someone out of a propheet, they will bring with them the propheet scroll, normally colored in, and possibly some cards. Getting someone out, and conversely, being gotten out, was supposed to help strengthen the bond between two students who now share the same experience.

Propheet Scroll[redigér]

Each propheet was represented by a paper scroll. On this scroll were the xeroxed lyrics to a song that was associated with the workshop, in addition to a drawing. A student who was getting someone out of a propheet would color one in and bring it to present to the participant when the propheet was over. Most students thumbtacked the scrolls of their most recent propheets onto the wall in their bunk space.

Ice Breaker[redigér]

A propheet exercise, done in the beginning, that is normally funny, or tries to be, but most often employs some level of humiliation. It is used to lull the students into a feeling of security to ease their nerves before the more intense exercises.


A group session, mostly confrontational and verbally abusive. Based on Synanon's "The game". Raps were held three days a week, and lasted around four hours.

Rap Request[redigér]

When a student or a staff requests another student to be in a rap with them. Requests would be made by writing your name and writing the name of the person you are requesting on a piece of paper, and putting it in the rap request box. The requests were normally for screaming and yelling at another person, otherwise known as an indictment (see below) but could also occasionally be used to request support.


When a staff or student confronts another student in a rap. Most often, this is done through browbeating, screaming, and abusive and embarrassing dialogue. This is normally because the student being indicted did something to anger the other person, or because they are considered to be "not growing", "out of agreement", or any other number of reasons or non-reasons. Occasionally, an indictment will be civil and kept at a decent volume. When a student is indicted, the person indicting them must sit across from them, since it was considered too intimidating to have a person sitting right next to you scream in your face. If a student was sitting in the wrong position and wanted to talk to the student being yelled at, they were required to get up and trade chairs with someone across the room from that person. You could also indict yourself in a rap, by saying "I need to talk". Self-indictments were known as "creating space". Sometimes, instead of saying "I need to talk", a student would say "I need space."

Blown Away[redigér]

Being screamed at in a rap. This was abuse of the worst degree. The goal in any rap situation was to bring a child/teen to tears and/or tear them down. The problem with this method was the lack of "building back up," which never happened.

As already mentioned, these "therapeutic sessions" lasted usually four hours, three days a week.

The counselors (although 99% of them had no formal education to work with troubled youth)were normally never yelled at in a rap.


Synonym to blown away.


A more esoteric term, and as a result, a bit more difficult to explain. It basically meant someone who has ulterior motives for speaking to you in a rap. Normally this revolved around the person having resentment towards the target, and indicting them, not out of concern for their well-being or development, but because they simply wanted to say nasty things to you and make you squirm. Ironically, almost everything that was said to someone in a rap could fit into this category. It's just that some people were more obvious about it than others, and they were the ones who got confronted on it. Also referred to as "getting your needs out" on someone.

Side Conversation[redigér]

A conversation you are having with someone in a rap, while the rest of the members are focused on someone else. Literally, having a conversation "on the side". Forbidden.

"Let's Move On"[redigér]

Spoken by rap facilitators, when they wanted to shift the focus from one student to another. Probably one of the most frightening things to hear in a rap, if you had not yet been indicted.

"Where are you at?"[redigér]

This was a common question, referring to how you are feeling. Although that term is common in regular culture, it held a different level of significance at CEDU. "Where are you at?" was often asked at the beginning and/or end of an indictment.

"My gut is flipping."[redigér]

Accusatory statement implying that the person you are addressing is lying or acting in a dishonest or suspicious manner. Can also be phrased "That makes my gut flip."

Rap Pass[redigér]

This could mean a few things. It could mean that a student who is expected to be indicted in a rap is not, or a student is not talking in a rap or "giving feedback", and is not confronted on their lack of participation. Essentially, it means you got a free pass for the day.

Running Your Anger[redigér]

This was forced, cathartic, screaming and crying, similar in technique to Primal Therapy. However, it is not yet ascertained whether Mel Wasserman was a follower of Dr. Arthur Janov. Although, it is interesting to note that John Lennon explored primal therapy in his album Plastic Ono Band, and the music from that album is used in the I & Me Workshop.

Running your anger was an expected part of emotional growth at the CEDU schools, and normally involved being worked up into a lather, either by yourself or your peers and staff, via methods such as screaming confrontation, browbeating, humiliation and regression/guided imagery (i.e. remembering things from your past.) Running your anger was always done from one position... that of sitting in your chair, doubled over, fists or hands around your head, and screaming at the floor. Most often, the episode would be started off by the student shouting "FUUUCK" or "FUUUUCCCK YOOOU!" This statement was usually addressed at their "negative thinking" (explained below.) Running your anger always caused large expectorations of mucus from the nose and mouth which dribbled as a constant stream from the student's head to the floor. Occasionally, students would also vomit. Running your anger was also known as running your shit.

"That's Right!"[redigér]

This was a common term of encouragement uttered by faculty in raps, propheets and workshops, to spur on people who were "running their anger". Facilitators would also bark at a student to "Say that again!" when they wanted a student who was "running their anger" to repeat something. In early 1980s, Richard Armstrong used to say 'That's right' when a student finally broke in a rap. He was unlike other staff that may have cycled in other stock phrases such as 'Sit with that', 'Feel that', or 'What does your little boy/girl feel'.

Taking Care of Your Feelings[redigér]

This meant doing what you believe is expected of you in a rap. Understood as a need to "run your anger" or cry. Indoctrinated students believed this to be a necessity for their mental well-being. There was a common fear that if a student went too long without doing this, something bad would happen.

Going for Broke[redigér]

Giving your all in a rap. This normally consisted of participating in every indictment in the rap in the appropriate manner (i.e. yelling and screaming at the person), possibly indicting someone yourself, and then asking for space for you to take care of your feelings by running your anger.

Playing it Safe[redigér]

The opposite of going for broke. Looked upon unfavorably.


Most often phrased as "In your thinking" or "In your head." This meant that you were having rational thoughts and thinking for yourself, instead of behaving as expected in a rap. This was often an accusation towards an indicted individual who spoke in a normal, calm tone of voice in raps. In short, your thinking was literally bad. You shouldn't think. Only after the I & Me, do they mention, briefly, that I (thinking) and Me (feeling) should work together. However, it was emphasized that "Me" should be the one in charge. A current parody of this mentality, although not directed at CEDU, is Stephen Colbert's concept Truthiness. "I don't care about the facts, I just go with what's in my gut."

Thinking was also attributed to what was understood as "negative thinking". These were negative things the student told themselves about how horrible a person they were. However, the source of such thoughts was never truly addressed, (especially if these thoughts stemmed from the program ideology itself) simply demonized as messages from the past, and therefore should be addressed by running your anger.

In Your Shit[redigér]

Similar to "in your thinking", except that it implied more that you were in an overall negative emotional mental state. It could also mean something akin to wallowing in your past.


Rules. This euphemistic term was used to give the illusion that these were rules the students consented to. Agreements can be temporary or constant in nature, the temporary ones being those that are issued to a student during a rap, workshop or propheet, the constant being those that students are expected to keep on a continuous basis. When you are following the rules, you are considered "in agreement."

Some examples of constant agreements are:

  • No sex
  • No drugs
  • No violence
  • Student must keep shirt tucked in at all time.
  • Students are only allowed five minute showers.
  • Students are forbidden from singing or mentioning "unacceptables" (see below)
  • Students are forbidden from playing "air guitar".
  • What is said in a rap, stays in a rap.

Examples of temporary agreements are:

  • Violence is forbidden in this workshop unless we say otherwise.
  • No side conversations.
  • No masturbating. (In reference to a workshop which lasts six days.)
  • We cannot continue until we are all in agreement.

Out of Agreement/Dirty[redigér]

This meant that you had broken one of the rules. The term "dirty" had the tactical edge of making someone feel unclean and shameful. In addition, the things that you did that were against the rules were known as "dirt".

Copping out/Disclosing[redigér]

The act of disclosing or copping out operated on several levels at the CEDU schools. It could mean anything from the mundane logistical issues of confessing to a staff or peer what agreements you had broken, to things that you had done in the past that you felt ashamed of, negative thoughts, or complete and utter fabrications because you were under pressure from faculty to come up with more "dirt". As a student progressed through the school, many came up with increasingly elaborate and extreme "disclosures", which involved things such as bestiality, prostitution, and acts of extreme violence. Disclosing was a ritualistic activity that was done before (as it pertained to "dirt") and during every propheet and workshop (as it pertained to revealing private secrets about one's past.) The significance the act of disclosure held at the schools created an atmosphere supportive of false and forced confessions.

Dirt List[redigér]

One method of confession. A dirt list was a list of rules that you broke, which you write yourself. It was required before propheets and workshops, on "full-times" (see below), and any other time the staff felt you were "dirty".

Stash List[redigér]

Different in a dirt list in that it is supposed to list things in your life that you need to get rid or let go of. It served the same purpose as a dirt list or disclosures in that it encouraged you to look at your list of items as moral transgressions and feel ashamed of them. As such, a stash list was simply another version of a dirt list. It was a written confession.

Pulling Up[redigér]

When a student attempted to enforce the school rules (agreements) with another student, it was referred to as "pulling them up." If a student sees another student out of agreement and does not "pull them up", then they themselves become "dirty" and will need to account for it on their next dirt list.

Enforcing compliance at CEDU was only partially done via the faculty. A great majority of the oversight was by older students, expected to keep the younger ones in line.

Ups and Downs[redigér]

This was a privilege that allowed the younger student to go up and down to the dorms by themselves, without needing to be escorted by an older student.


Was one version of the phased system of progress through the school. This system existed from early inception to the early 90s at both CEDU RS and Rocky Mountain Academy. The higher you got within the family/phase system, the more privileges you were permitted, such as no longer having to have your mail or phone calls monitored, being able to wear black and other non-standard CEDU issued clothing, and being able to visit home. You graduated after you completed your last family. There were six families during this era. Voyageurs and Discovery, which were the lower school, Quest and Challenge, which were the middle school, and New Horizons and Summit, which were the upper school. You were required to apply to each family and make a portfolio before you were allowed to "move up". The Summit portfolio being the most comprehensive and time-consuming to create. When you moved up to Summit, your ascension was announced before the student body and you were required to dress formal and say something.

It is fair to state that the family structure was not static at Rocky Mountain Academy. The number of families grew as the count of students increased. Either New Horizon or Summit was added in 1985, and 1986 saw the start discovery. The availability of privileges in the mid 80s was loosely tied to families, and all privileges needed to be applied for to the family head. Nor was it guaranteed that all privileges would be dispensed prior to graduation. For example, dating privileges was not available to everyone in Summit, New Horizons, and occasionally challengers. The same was true for going off campus alone, make-up, and some music and clothes. Dating and smoking privileges was phased out after 1987.Don't forget Vision the first family at Cedu.


Teams were a system of organization applied to staff and students, which coexisted with the peer group and phase systems (phases applied to students only).

Teams were lead by a team leader and an assistant team leader, who were both senior staff members, and were composed of students and staff at different points of the program. Each team was therefor a cross section of the school. Teams were primarily used for dividing the school into large non - hierarchical units for purposes such as chores and activities.

At NWA in the late 90s there were three teams which were named for stellar formations: Polaris, Phoenix, and Orion, which were male only, female only, and coed respectively (though staff could be on any team regardless of gender).

Peer Group[redigér]

This was the group of students one would go through all the propheets, workshops and wilderness expeditions with. Essentially, your graduating class. Students were often "dropped" (demoted) peer groups if they were believed not to be progressing. In addition, a lot of times, peer groups were merged in the upper school, so that two peer groups would end up going through their last two workshops together.

Big Brother/Sister, Little Brother/Sister[redigér]

Self-explanatory. Older students taking younger ones under their wing. As an older student, you could have official (i.e. assigned or requested) and unofficial younger siblings.

House Around the Pit[redigér]

Students were required to assemble around the fireplace, for announcements, and the calling out of who would be attending what rap.


This meant that there was a specific student, or a group of students (normally from a family on down) that you could not speak with. (You were "on bans" from them.) This also meant that you could not have any eye contact, or engage in any other means of communication, such as passing notes. If there are a group of students which were having a conversation, and you were on bans from one of the students within that conversation, you could not be allowed to participate in that discussion, even if you don't speak directly with the person you are on bans from. Students could also be put on bans from the opposite sex.


This was the forced, no-boundaries, and often inappropriate affection that was considered expected behavior between same-sex students (or faculty and students, regardless of gender). During social and down time, when students would spend time together, they would normally be curled up with each other, sitting between a friend's legs, laying their head on another person's stomach, or any other method of affection that is normally reserved for a much more intimate sort of connection with someone. Students often held hands while walking as well. Normally, if a student was not participating in smooshing and spending time by themselves in the living room, they were pressured to join someone by the staff and/or older students.

A more widely-used term by cult experts for this phenomenon is love bombing.

Ironically, before the early 90s, CEDU was also incredibly homophobic, and held gay-identified kids up to double-standards regarding smooshing appropriateness, until the student converted to believing they were straight. They also had a strict no-hire policy for gays wanting to be staff. There is also believed to be some discrepancy over the severity of this as it pertains to the Running Springs campus versus the Idaho one.

Tight/Plum and Square[redigér]

These terms meant to keep your personal space and the student facilities clean. The term "plumb and square" was specific to the CEDU Running Springs campus, and to the CEDU Ascent wilderness program.

Going Slow[redigér]

This term meant that the student was in such a vulnerable space that they were hypersensitive to any sort of stimuli. This state of mind happened most often after extreme exercises in propheets/workshops, or after a student had run their anger in a rap. It is normally a result of a pseudo-cathartic explosion of emotion. It was looked upon positively, and was encouraged.

Going Fast[redigér]

This meant the opposite. It was normally attached to behavior that was considered too loud, active, lively, or hyper, and was looked upon negatively. People accused of "going fast" were normally blamed with "creating an unsafe space" (explained below.)


Safety, or, "keeping a safe space", was a euphemism for enforcing the status quo and maintaining the proper atmosphere within the school to keep students compliant and vulnerable. Slow behavior was approved of, fast was not. This also encompassed the strict following of agreements for all students. If there were many students out of agreement, or perceived to be out of agreement, they were believed to be creating an unsafe environment for everyone else.


This meant that you weren't allowing yourself to succumb to the program. The staff at the school would say all too often that they needed to "break down your resistance."


This referred to how you represented yourself before you came to CEDU. It implied that you were sporting a false and contrived persona, akin to a stereotype, that was contrary to who you truly were as a person. What CEDU neglected to mention, however, was that it perpetuated it's own "image" onto students: conformity under the guise of individuality. "You're an individual, just like everyone else." Images were, a lot of times, assigned to you by the staff. i.e. a staff member would accuse you of being a slut, or a druggie, or a junkie. Upper school students who came back from a home visit with new clothes that the staff believed "supported their image" had those clothes confiscated. In addition, from the moment of arrival, students are under constant scrutiny not to "fall back into their image". There are several exercises in propheets where a student's identity prior to CEDU is demoized to the point of being labeled "their nightmare" or "their death."


An esoteric term as well as a spoken taunt. Used to make students feel as if they were being greedy if they did something such as rushing the cafeteria line. The premise was that the student was acting out of scarcity as opposed to trusting that there would be enough for themselves and everyone else. When a student or group of students were discovered acting this way, many students would jeer "scarcity! scarcity!" and laugh. An RMA version of the scarcity taunt is to moo like cows when students rush the line. The RMA campus would occasionally run out of food, which exacerbated this situation. Cedu campus occasionally would run out of food as well. If they felt someone was not improving with this trait they would put you on "bans" from certain foods they thought you were prone to be "scarce" towards.

Cutting up the Streets[redigér]

This meant that you were discussing places in your hometown with another student who also lived there. It was strictly forbidden.


This referred to musicians or bands that were not permitted to be mentioned at the school. Obviously, the music could also not be played, you could not sing it, and you could not listen to them on a home visit. What was deemed acceptable and unacceptable changed over the course of CEDU. Some bands that were unacceptable early on were later actually used in propheets and played as house music.

Examples of how "unacceptable" was used within the context of the CEDU language would consist of statements like: "Don't sing that, that's unacceptable." or "Stop singing unacceptables."

Fiending Out[redigér]

This meant that you were getting overly excited about unacceptable music, whether it be singing it, or hearing it somewhere and enjoying it.. Also forbidden.

Popping Off[redigér]

When a student accidentally starts singing a song by an unacceptable band. Despite the fact that most times, it was unintentional, it was still considered "dirt".


When a student speaks badly about another student or staff behind their back. Also against the rules, and considered "dirt".

Hiding Out[redigér]

When a student is spending time in the library, or some other area of campus by themselves. Alone time. Frowned upon. Students were made to feel ashamed if they did this, as if they were a loser who could not make friends.


A passive-agressive, hurtful comment you say to another person.


Otherwise known as "finding cracks." Attempting to find a loophole in an agreement. For instance, instead of mentioning an unacceptable band, you would possibly mention only the initials, or give a brief but recognizable description of them.



Sex Contract[redigér]

Two students who are planning on having sex. Severely against the rules. This also applies to 2 students who had or were planning ANY form of sexual contact.


Running Away

Split Contract[redigér]

Two students who are planning on running away. Also severely against the rules.

Rap Contract[redigér]

Two students who form an agreement not to indict or talk to each other in raps.

Work Detail[redigér]

A form of punishment through manual labor. A student worked on their own on a particular project, such as digging up stumps, landscaping, building walls, etc. People on work details were on bans from the entire student body while working, and were not allowed a watch. Also called Work Assignment.

Work Crews[redigér]

The assigned jobs that each family participated in during the day. Work was done in the mornings on rap days, and all day (plus phys ed) on non rap days. Each family had a different job. For example, at Rocky Mountain Academy in the 80s, Voyageurs were at the wood corral, Discovery did forestry, Quest was the farm, Challenge was either the woodshop or the kitchen, and by the time the Emerson academic building was built New Horizons and Summit students attended classes. The term work crews also applied to Saturday cleaning crews.

First Light[redigér]

The meeting of the students in one particular family, before going to work or class for the day.

Last Light[redigér]

The final meeting of the entire school, before going to bed. Normally consisted of a particular student being assigned to read or talk to the rest of the student body.


A student stands up and talks about themselves, sometimes directed at anther student they like and want to offer support to.


The phys ed credit. Normally consisted of some sort of team-building exercise, or the ropes course.


An event involving the entire student body. This happened before a peer group went into a propheet or workshop. It normally involved guided imagery and loud, cheesy music. Often, the entire student and staff body is brought to tears, depending on how intense the warm-up is. It culminates with other students "sharing" with the ones who are about to go into the propheet.


Occasionally this followed the common psychiatric term which meant that you were accusing someone else of a behavior, when in reality, you were the one guilty of that behavior. More often than that, projecting in CEDU was a rap exercise where one participant imagines that the person sitting across from them is either a negative representation of themselves, or a representation of someone in their past that they hate or have issues with. The end result is the target being screamed at by the person projecting.


A term referring to specific kinds of exercises in propheets and workshops that resulted in physical and emotional exertion, and possible physical injury. Normally consisted of a repetitious act, such as pounding a pillow, having to fight physical restraint, laying on a mattress while kicking and punching, running in place until you scream and sob, or biting down on a towel while simultaneously trying to yank it out of your mouth. This was always accompanied by explosive, emotional venting.

Bioenergetics are first introduced to the students in the I Want to Live propheet.

It cannot be verified with certainty at this time whether Mel Wasserman borrowed heavily from the techniques used in Bioenergetic Analysis, but the methods and theory are similar.


A propheet/workshop exercise where two students face each other in chairs, and engage each other, while being coached by the staff. Normally involves a lot of screaming, repetitive chanting/shouting (Such as "Mommy made me ____ . Daddy made me ______.") and regression. Dyads are used primarily in the children's propheet, the Summit workshop, and during trust counseling.

I vs. Me[redigér]

- see Main article Propheets (CEDU) -

Trust Walks[redigér]

An exercise in which two students are paired up and one is blindfolded. The entire group is then led on a walk through the woods, while the one who can see assists the one who is blindfolded. Nobody is allowed to talk. This exercise is used many times throughout the school, such as the ropes course, but it is also used in the I & Me.

Trust Counseling[redigér]

Students could not participate in this until after their I & Me workshop. Two members of the same peer group would set up an appointment for the counseling session, and meet in a room or dormitory when no one is there. The format is like a "dyad", complete with running your anger, and it also can involve bioenergetics, and often does. The students often write in their journals or notebooks afterwards about the experience.


This term had a dual meaning.

1. Doing something that is difficult for you, or that makes you uncomfortable.

2. An exercise in the Summit workshop. Otherwise known as "The costume party." Students are assigned characters to dress up as. Each character is expected to do specific things and behave in a certain way. The actions were normally a combination of doing something that was contrary to your (already heavily compromised) personae, in addition to a "lug". However, instead of calling these assignments "characters", they were called "stretches". Students were required to fashion their own costumes within a specific amount of time, from limited materials that they had to scavenge from the entire campus, and then participate in a "party" where everyone goes around and acts out their "stretch" repeatedly while interacting with each other. Most stretches involved a high degree of humiliation, as well as exhaustion, because of having to repeat their stretch to loud music and in the context of a contrived, party-like atmosphere over a long period of time. Later, students were then required to perform their "stretch" solo, in front of the peer group, repeatedly, until they got it "right" and the staff were satisfied with their performance. At that point, the rest of the peer group carries them around triumphantly, crowd-surf style, normally to a song like "Fame". That part of the stretch exercise was known as "flying".

It is believed that the stretch exercise was one of the things that Mel Wasserman did not borrow from Lifespring.

Propheet/Workshop Reunion[redigér]

This is an event that takes place during rap time, the monday after the workshop or propheet gets out, which is normally on saturday. During this time, new concepts or ideas are introduced, while others are rehashed and clarified.

"You set it up"[redigér]

This was when a student was accused of creating the situation or predicament they are currently in. It could also mean setting yourself up for ridicule.

Beat Sheet[redigér]

Normally the standard issue wool blanket, thumbtacked up around the bunk bed to give you privacy while you masturbate.

Thumbtacks were a very popular item.

Jack Shack[redigér]

Synonym to beat sheet.


A communal masturbatory game participated by the male students. Each student masturbates in bed. The first one to reach orgasm shouted "bingo", and essentially "won". Variation of the circle jerk.

Shower Power[redigér]

The female students' answer to "bingo", with the exception that it took place in the shower stalls, and there was no race to see who reached orgasm first.


This was a method of punishment for more severe infractions against the rules. Such as running away, having sex, or a sex contract, or self-inflicted injuries, such as carving. At Rocky Mountain Academy, the term was referred to as a full-time. At the CEDU Running Springs campus, it was referred to as an ILE, or Independent Learning Exercise. (Need additional verification on this.) A student was to remain isolated at a booth in the dining room for x amount of days. While there, they were supposed to be completing writing assignments in their notebook, as well as complete a reading assignment given to them by the staff that ran their full time. During the day, they were on a work detail. Normally it was a very long project that would last the entirety of their full time, and the student could not complete the full-time until they completed that project.. On non-rap days, the student worked all day, on rap days, they worked half a day and then were in a rap. A full-time student would be on bans from most of the school, with the exception of upper school students. The only times they could speak with others was in raps. They could not leave their booth unless escorted by a staff or student. They were not allowed to smile, laugh, sing or hug. If you smoked, you were limited to four cigarettes per day. Your watch was also taken away for the duration of the full time. Staff and older students would occasionally sit down with the student and talk with them about their progress. Often, when a student got on a full-time, they would also have to move dorms. Once you were taken off of a full time, you were relieved, and sometimes felt that you had "learned something about yourself." The main objective of a full-time was to "break" a student's resistance down to its lowest possible level.

Students at NWA, BCA and possibly RMA (conformation for RMA 2002, and no knowledge of such practices at RS) were sometimes given jumpsuits to wear during thier full-time. This lead to the closely related term Jumpsuit, which refered to a full-time or subset of full-time restrictions.

The full-time was the only restriction used at the CEDU Ascent wilderness program. Students on a full-time at Ascent were given an orange vest, assigned a stump to dig out during work crews, made to eat alone during meals, and given writing assignments. The lifestyle at Ascent was harsh enough that a full-time was a small distinction from normal life.

What follows is an example of a list of full-time agreements and the daily schedule, which was written by the staff on the inside cover of the full time notebook before it is presented to the student for the first time.

Full time agreements:

1. Restricted to table. You must ask faculty permission to leave for any reason. (cigarette/bathroom)

2. There are no privileges

3. Bans - (list of families. i.e. voyageurs, discovery, quest)

4. No smiling, laughing, singing or hugging

5. No talking to people from your table.

6. Ask questions about all assignments before you start them (work, reading or writing.)

7. Come prepared to work every day. (boots, gloves, jacket, rain gear, etc.)

8. Work hours:

M-F 8:00 - 11:45, 1:00 - 4:45

Sat 9:00 - 10:45, 1:00 - 4:45

Sun 9:00 - 10:45, 12:30 - 3:45

9. Dorm head or dorm support will walk you up and down from your dorm

10. Total involvement in raps

11. Limited to four cigarettes per day

12. Keep a daily journal of your thoughts and feelings for each day. Include raps, work, booth restriction, or whatever comes up that needs exploring.

(I was on a fulltime at CEDU Running Springs in 1987, they must have changed it to the ILE after I left)


A variation of a full-time. Considered not as severe. A student was still restricted to a booth in the dining hall and had work detail, but some of the rules that applied to someone on a full time did not apply to a booth restriction.

(If anyone can please add to this entry that would be most helpful.)

Living Room[redigér]

Another form of restriction. A student is placed on bans from others and is forced to remain in the living room and write in their notebook. They cannot initiate conversations with others, just like a full-time and a booth, but others can come and talk to them. The bans restrictions tend to be less rigid as well... i.e. you can speak with a wider range of families.


A form of punishment from the Northwest Academy/Boulder Creek Academy era. A student is forced to wear a jumpsuit while on work detail. Used primarily for humiliation, since the jumpsuits were intentionally ill-fitting and uncomfortable.

Tent Restriction[redigér]

The proper term for this restriction is not verified at this time. (Please help by editing this entry.)

This is also a form of punishment from the Northwest Academy/Boulder Creek Academy era. It is a variation of the full time, except that instead of a booth in the dining hall, a student is forced to live and sleep outside in a tent when not on work detail or in a rap. Meals are brought to them. They are also not permitted to live in the dorms.

More information is currently needed as to what else this method of punishment entailed.

Writing Assignments[redigér]

Writing assignments could be given out for a number of reasons. One is when a student is on any type of restriction. However, it can also be imposed on a student when their family head feels that they are not progressing quickly enough, or appear to be "stagnating" developmentally. These assignments normally consisted of writing a dirt list, a list of negative thinking, a list of flags (see below), a stash list, a list of lies, a list of what you hate about yourself, a list of how you push people away, etc. Basically, you have to make a lot of lists.

(Parent) Visits[redigér]

Students were only allowed to see parents when the school deemed it acceptable. In the lower school, students are only allowed to visit their parents on campus. On the first visit, the student is required to go over a list of their disclosures with their parents. This can normally include very embarrassing and private information. When the student reaches the middle school, they are allowed to go on off-campus visits, but still within the general area of the school. As the student progresses through the middle school, they can stay at places further away. For example, in the case of the Idaho campus, a student would start by having an off campus visit in Bonners Ferry. The next one allows the student to visit in Sandpoint, and the third allows them to visit Coeur D'alene. Once students reach the challenge family, they are allowed to go on home visits. The number of days allowed home increase with each visit, the first visit consisting of 4 days, while the last one is one to two weeks. Students were not allowed to home visit any other family member except for their parents.


A goal, set either by staff or the student themselves. Such as "My direction is to spend more time with my little brothers or sisters." or "My direction is to make more rap requests." A direction can be either short-term, or an issue that is worked on throughout the student's stay.

A rap direction meant that the student was required to do something in a rap, such as indict one person that had made them feel uncomfortable recently, or speak about a tenuous relationship with a family member.

The Floor[redigér]

Literally, the floor of the main house. Students would often be sitting on it, playing cards, or "smooshing". A common phrase was "I'm going to go spend some time on the floor with people."

The House[redigér]

The main lodge. This building contained the dining room, the "floor", fireplace area, phone rooms, and the nurse's station. It was the main area for socializing when not working or in raps. It was also the place where warm-ups took place, as well as when people came out of propheets and workshops and shared about their experience with the rest of the student body. The nurse's station, or any clinical staff members, was introduced sometime after 1988.

Your Story[redigér]

Your life story. Students were often encouraged to tell other students, indiscriminately, their "story". One's story was refined during raps and propheets. One could be indicted in a rap for the quality of telling their story, and one could be assigned to tell their story to anyone else in the program by any staff member.

Moving Up[redigér]

Graduating from one family to the next.

Doing the Loop[redigér]

The only thing worse than being alone at CEDU was being seen alone at CEDU. As a result, some kids would literally "do the loop" around the house, i.e. walk through the main area, into adjacent rooms, the bathroom and back to the floor. It basically meant that you had no one at the moment to hang out with, and didn't want to be caught hanging out by yourself, so you kept moving.


Not to be confused with synanon's "the game". "Game" was when a student was believed to be acting in a dishonest manner. "You have so many games." or "You're playing a game." or "I can spot your game from a mile away."


The alternate facility that your parents were planning on sending you to. Faculty would often hang someone's "option" over a student's head and remind them of it, to scare them into wanting to stay at CEDU. It is unknown whether or not all of the options students were threatened with were actually options their parents had considered, or whether they were complete fabrications by the faculty.


To insult someone, mostly by calling them names. i.e. "capping on" them. Making fun of them. Frowned upon. The rules and standards for this seemed rather arbitrary, since it was perfectly ok to say very demeaning things to someone in a rap. For instance, you could not call someone an asshole, but it was perfectly legitimate to say they were acting like one. The linguistic origin of the word, according to CEDU was that when you insult someone, you "put a cap" on their feelings. The Running Springs "house" had a couch on a landing overlooking the lodge. It had the nickname "The Capping Couch" from 1982 to 1984. Not clear if it was always refered to that way.


Acting or being tough. Frowned upon.


Being vulnerable and sensitive. Students who were equated with having a "hard image" were constantly given direction to be soft.

Look Good[redigér]

A kid who is believed to be following the rules without sincerity. A non-indoctrinated student who tries to look like one who is. Also Fake or Full of Shit.

"Get a feel good"[redigér]

Essentially, copping a feel when "smooshing". This does not necessarily have to manifest itself in any overt physical action. It could simply be that someone is suspected of enjoying the intimacy for sexual gratification. Predictably, staff were mostly exempt from this scrutiny, and students who were accused of such behavior were normally innocent.

News and Goods[redigér]

A list of things that are going on with you that are positive. Students were required to start their presentation by saying "here is what is new and good in my life." This exercise is introduced after students have been through the I & Me Workshop.


Humiliating things you feel bad about, especially if it pertains to something you did in your past prior to CEDU. Students were often required to "cop" to their "scum" in raps. Different than "dirt" in that it wasn't necessarily something that was against the rules.


This had a similar meaning to its real-world counterpart, albeit the criteria was far different. A flag was a warning sign. A student demonstrating unacceptable behavior was often told that "their flags were flying", and that it was indicative that something more sinister was going on with them. On full-times, students were sometimes given a writing assignment to list their "flags".

[to] Walk[redigér]

To leave the program by choice after one's eighteenth birthday. Distinct from [to] Run which was used in cases where parents still had custody. The use of extended custody and threats to deny financial help were often used by parents to prevent students from walking. Staff also strongly discouraged students from walking. Also (at NWA) [to] Walk off the Hill.

Hygiene Program[redigér]

Students could be scrutinized for thier physical hygiene, and if they were found to be too unkempt they were given special agreements and scrutiny. This special attention (and humiliation) was termed a hygiene program.


Specific to Ascent.

This was the only name allowed for the outhouses at basecamp; a peculiarity that was strictly enforced. Potty Circles were gatherings wherin students would form a circle and be called on and allowed to use the potty. Potty Circles were also where tooth brushing occured (at night), and where the student's 1 liter nalgene bottle was filled with water. Students were required to drink full liters at every meal, were often denied use of the potty as a cruelty, and it was not uncommon for students to involuntarily urinate on themselves as a result. When a student had to use the potty at night they would put on topless boot shells at the center of the teepee called Potty Boots (along with their full garb), walk out of the teepee, and shout Potty Please!. They would then be escorted to the potty by a nightstaff member. The strictures regarding the bathroom were mainly used as a novel means of cruelty and humiliation.


The dwelling one lived in at Ascent. Literally a 30ft tall copy of the dwelling associated with some Native Americans. These were located on wooden Teepee Decks which were fitted with duct work to pump heat from a woodburning stove into the teepee and warm it. All of the wood used for heat was cut by the students.


The main campus of Ascent. Comprised of a Teepee Deck with four Teepees, a mess tent, a wood corral, and the potty, all layed out on a wood chip parimeter in the shape of a medicine wheel. All the structures at basecamp were heated by wood cut by students. Showers were separate, and had modern heating. Students were given a 1.5 to 3 minute shower every other day while at basecamp. Students at basecamp were always under the supervision of a staff member.


The 14 day wilderness excursion that formed the pinnical of the curriculum at Ascent. It was marked by intense hiking with heavy packs through mountainous terrain, and a somewhat more relaxed lifestyle than a student would find at basecamp.


An acronym for "walking around money. This was the first allotment of cash a student was allowed to have, usually deseminated weekly by the family head in the Discovery Family. A typical sarting WAM was $1.00 and apon requesting a raise would be increased by 25-50 cent incriments depending on your performance at the school. These monies could be spent at the school snack shop (stocked with store brand sodas and candies) or by signing up for a Store Run on Sunday to go into town and spend your money at a convenience store.

Sugar Limit[redigér]

Cedu did not cook with or serve refined sugar. Instead, honey and other natural sweeteners were favored. Students were not allowed to ingest refined sugar except for what was alloted as their "sugar limit". A typical starting "sugar limit" was $1.00 spent on products containing refined sugar no matter how much WAM or Stipend you made. This was alloted weekly. To go over your "sugar limit" was "out of agreement"


An older student's allowance of cash. These pecuniary incentives for performing well at the school could reach much more significant amounts.

Bust Ass Burgers/ Bust Ass Broncos[redigér]

An incentive program at Cedu whereby students who performed to the satisfaction of their Family Head by "busting ass" on a work crew would be taken by the Family Head to a greasy spoon off campus to indulge in a milkshake, burger and fries. Another option was to opt for a trail ride on horseback led by the Family Head. These incentives were not dispensed until the Farm Family and, even then, very rarely.

Bagging It[redigér]

Derived from being a "dirt bag" In short, being "out of agreement".

Leach Fields[redigér]

The Cedu school was surrounded on all sides by forboding canyons or highly trafficked areas save one: the Leach Fields. This area was by the Farm and was the only overland route out of the school that was not frequented by other people. It was dubbed "the Leach Fields" because is was literally a leach field. CEDU was self sufficient for water and sewage so after the waste cleared the sewage treatment plant it was pumped to the leach feild to complete its safe return to the water table. The leach field was about 1/2 acre of shallowly buried PVC pipes that had holes in them to allow the sewage to leach out. You were not allowed to walk there because of potential damage to the brittle pipes. It also smelled bad. On one occassion an employee inadvertabtly drove over it in a backhoe causing the entire system to have to be replaced.

That's a Night[redigér]

The worst thing a student could hear from a staff. Simply put, you were to sacrifice your precious free time that evening to do the school's dishes until you were released. To be released in a timely manner, dishes were to be done in silence and with an exaggerated fervor that often boardered on the ridiculous in order to convey the appearance of hard, sincere work. . This also meant that your free time on the weekend was to be usurped by a "Sunday Day" and "Cerebration".

Sunday Day[redigér]

All students who were given dishes as a punishment during the week were required to perform a "Sunday Day" in addition to however many nights of dishes were assigned. This was simply losing ones free time on Sunday and doing dishes after breakfast until the older student or staff in charge of the kitchen considered the area "tight" enough to release you. If it was not "tight" you were to polish and scrub the kitchen or dining room until the overseer was satisfied. . A "sunday Day" also always included a "Cerebration" (see below)


Evidently a combination of "cerebral" and "celebration" in an effort to take the sting out of this particularly depressing penalty. This quasi-philosophical and emotional exercise took place on Sunday night while the rest of the student body enjoyed the only movie or television broadcast that they would see all week. The content of this meeting, usually held in a closed room, was lighter in substance than a rap but often held more gravitasse than an informal conversation and the substance and direction of the "Cerebration" was purely at the discretion of the staff menber in charge.

Doing Multiples[redigér]

Being punished with more than one night of dishes.

Music Agreements[redigér]

A list of pre-approved music that one could listen to prior to embarking on a home visit. These agreements were formed ahead of time by staff and printed out on paper so the student could refer to what bands were deemed "acceptable" for their particular evolution within the school's program.

Own Discretion[redigér]

 Older students who were to be trusted with music of a more "challenging" nature in theme and image were given "own discretion" if they asked for it and were approved.

Dorm Reqs[redigér]

A list of requisitions for the dorm room compiled by the dorm head and distributed weekly.